10.7.10
IS THERE ANY HOPE FOR ME??
由琴晚7點瞓到今朝10點,的確係因之前考試挍到好攰,但同時又好似想借瞓覺去逃避面對現實,唔想向任何人交代d咩咁,好想等自己靜一靜.....
從今朝起身,心入面就一直諗住d成績,但每次讀書時就有心無力,專心唔到.
有時真係好想放棄,唔想再去追求d咩,但一諗到自己係屋企入面最後一個能夠成為大學生的希望,又係父母最抱期望的一個,咁都冇辦法啦,都要挨埋佢,入左大學先算.
中學果時攞全班第一, O' level 時攞好成績,爸爸媽咪不知幾咁開心,幾咁以我為榮.
估唔到宜家上左JC,次次考試後都要見家長,令到佢地幾丟架...真係好對唔住我架父母.
真係好希望之後果4個月我會生生性性,好好讀書,作最後衝刺!
9.7.10
29.5.10
3.4.10
Reflect!
I finally can blog the second jouney coz i forgot my password!! i tried like more than 10 times to get my password correct..Luncky i eventually can sign in=)
Today i got the badminton team T-shirt, but i felt very depressed and frustrated after today's training...my coach said my skill and techniques are not up to standard..
What he said is really matter a lot to me, i immediately lost my passion and confidence on badminton and on myself. When i was playing mixed double with the guys b4 the end of the training, i couldn't give full play to my skill, even some simple strokes i also couldn't hit properly or missed it...after the training, i went off immediately coz i didn't want other ppl to see my black and sad face=( i felt the sense of failure and defeat.. why i did not improve much for the pass 1 year?? y? it indeed breaks my spirit and makes me feel disappointed on myself.......
Not only on sports, it goes same to my academic aspect. I have ever gotten this lousy and terrible and disgusting and bad results b4. i dunno how to tell this shocking news to my mom, but b4 the BT, i already told her that she needs to go sch and see my civic tutor regarding to my results, hope that she got mentally prepared.
According to my classmates, Parent-meet-tutor day is on 30 April, i am scared that my mom will be extremely disappointed when she knows the results.....Haiz...
i always promised myself that i MUST study , but i always couldn't put it into practice, i always get tempted or easily distracted by other things, give excuses to myself...i already used to get bad results nowadays, so i dun feel stressed over my results...But i know that shld not be the way, A Level is drawing nearer, i have not much time left to prepare for the exams, i think i really really really need to wake up and pluck up, back to be a diligent and hardworking student like last time!
P.S. i feel happy receiving the Team T-shirt anw, tat is what i have been looking forward to have since last year! Finally...Haha=))
Today i got the badminton team T-shirt, but i felt very depressed and frustrated after today's training...my coach said my skill and techniques are not up to standard..
What he said is really matter a lot to me, i immediately lost my passion and confidence on badminton and on myself. When i was playing mixed double with the guys b4 the end of the training, i couldn't give full play to my skill, even some simple strokes i also couldn't hit properly or missed it...after the training, i went off immediately coz i didn't want other ppl to see my black and sad face=( i felt the sense of failure and defeat.. why i did not improve much for the pass 1 year?? y? it indeed breaks my spirit and makes me feel disappointed on myself.......
Not only on sports, it goes same to my academic aspect. I have ever gotten this lousy and terrible and disgusting and bad results b4. i dunno how to tell this shocking news to my mom, but b4 the BT, i already told her that she needs to go sch and see my civic tutor regarding to my results, hope that she got mentally prepared.
According to my classmates, Parent-meet-tutor day is on 30 April, i am scared that my mom will be extremely disappointed when she knows the results.....Haiz...
i always promised myself that i MUST study , but i always couldn't put it into practice, i always get tempted or easily distracted by other things, give excuses to myself...i already used to get bad results nowadays, so i dun feel stressed over my results...But i know that shld not be the way, A Level is drawing nearer, i have not much time left to prepare for the exams, i think i really really really need to wake up and pluck up, back to be a diligent and hardworking student like last time!
ADD OIL GIRL!
P.S. i feel happy receiving the Team T-shirt anw, tat is what i have been looking forward to have since last year! Finally...Haha=))
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