Today i got the badminton team T-shirt, but i felt very depressed and frustrated after today's training...my coach said my skill and techniques are not up to standard..
What he said is really matter a lot to me, i immediately lost my passion and confidence on badminton and on myself. When i was playing mixed double with the guys b4 the end of the training, i couldn't give full play to my skill, even some simple strokes i also couldn't hit properly or missed it...after the training, i went off immediately coz i didn't want other ppl to see my black and sad face=( i felt the sense of failure and defeat.. why i did not improve much for the pass 1 year?? y? it indeed breaks my spirit and makes me feel disappointed on myself.......
Not only on sports, it goes same to my academic aspect. I have ever gotten this lousy and terrible and disgusting and bad results b4. i dunno how to tell this shocking news to my mom, but b4 the BT, i already told her that she needs to go sch and see my civic tutor regarding to my results, hope that she got mentally prepared.
According to my classmates, Parent-meet-tutor day is on 30 April, i am scared that my mom will be extremely disappointed when she knows the results.....Haiz...
i always promised myself that i MUST study , but i always couldn't put it into practice, i always get tempted or easily distracted by other things, give excuses to myself...i already used to get bad results nowadays, so i dun feel stressed over my results...But i know that shld not be the way, A Level is drawing nearer, i have not much time left to prepare for the exams, i think i really really really need to wake up and pluck up, back to be a diligent and hardworking student like last time!
ADD OIL GIRL!
P.S. i feel happy receiving the Team T-shirt anw, tat is what i have been looking forward to have since last year! Finally...Haha=))
